probably so
a raw open wound
that is how chögyam trungpa rinpoche
described some feeling, perhaps this feeling
of opening to one's fallibility and ultimate destruction
your experience is raw and tender and so personal,
he said, it is this tender heart of a warrior
that has the power to heal the world
surrender means opening oneself completely, he said,
trying to get beyond fascination and expectation, surrender
also means acknowledging the raw, rugged, clumsy, and shocking
qualities of one’s ego, acknowledging them and surrendering them as well
generally we find it very difficult, he said,
to give out and surrender our raw and rugged qualities of ego
perhaps he said all of this
when he wasn't drunk and snorting cocaine
and womanizing, or perhaps he said all of this
because of that
